Andrew T. Gennes, 21
Andrew T. Gennes, the son of Tom Gennes of Warroad, and Cynthia Gennes of Bemidji, passed away on Thursday, February 1, 2007 in Thief River Falls, MN. Andy Gennes was born on May 25, 1985 in Baudette, MN. He began his schooling in Baudette and later in Bemidji, and finished his education in Warroad, MN. He attended High School in Warroad, and then received his G.E.D. through Marvin Windows while working there. Andy worked in the case master department at Marvin Windows and Doors for a few years. He enjoyed ice fishing, and hunting deer and grouse. He was excellent in mechanics and enjoyed fixing things. He was also very talented in computer repair and as a welder. Andy was also very helpful to his friends. He enjoyed helping other people with their needs and if you knew Andy for 10 minutes you would like him forever. He was a very likable man and had numerous friends. Andy is survived by his mother, Cynthia Gennes of Bemidji; his father, Tom Gennes of Warroad; siblings Alan Edward of Warroad, Heather Christine of Bemidji and her children Payton, Destiny and Chantel, Alison Marie of Bemidji, and Joseph Harold of Bemidji; grandparents, Elizabeth Gennes of Buffalo, MN, and Walter and Ida Coninx of Baudette; girlfriend, Casey McGraw of Williams; Aunt, Sharon (Jeff) Mangas. He is also survived by his cousins and many friends. Mass of Christian Burial for Andrew T. Gennes of Warroad will be held on Wednesday at 2:00 p.m. at the St. Mary’s Catholic Church in Warroad. Visitation is from 5-7 p.m. Tuesday at Helgeson Funeral Chapel in Warroad, and one hour prior to services at the church. A devotional service will be held at 7:00 p.m. Tuesday at Helgeson’s in Warroad. Andrew passed away in Thief River Falls on Thursday, February 1, 2007. He was 21 years old. Helgeson Funeral Chapel of Warroad is handling the arrangements.

These were taken back in September I found them once and lost them again then found them again. Jules playing in the sand with the girls the day after he got back from a trip to England. Hopefully he'll only have to leave us once more. He really completes our family nicely. Hopefully immigration will let him stay for good sometime soon.

 

You know I have troubles understanding why some people do the things they do.  I think that is my problem I want to understand but nobody really wants to be understood. I had a meltdown this morning a bad one. Once and awhile it happens, I tend to bottle up so much of my emotion that I tend to burst at times. I'm glad the kids weren't here to see it.

 

I'm enjoying my new job, it's demanding of me and challenging. I made it past my three month probation with flying colors. My supervisor told me that it's been a long time since she's had someone she felt comfortable handing projects off to. Sure I've made some mistakes here and there but the thing is I'm finding them, and fixing them. Not someone else. She tells me that shows her that I'm definitely learning. I also taught them a trick with outlook calendar, yeah I know, still they didn't know it could be used as a date book and a task list. They will never forget a meeting again right????

 

I must say it is strange to go from being someone that is treated like a bottom feeder at work to telling the Chief Judge or the Chief of Police what they can and can't use funds allocated to them on. I have a meeting on Tuesday with the Public works to do some budget training. They need to be taught how to figure out their budgets. I'm still on a bit of high over that for so long I've been treated less than I could actually be and it took the encouragement of some friends to get my butt in gear. It's funny I keep getting calls from recruiters too. I feel like I'm in high demand in one area of my life.

 

Class starts on Monday. One semester left it's really exciting to be here again. The kids start indoor soccer tomorrow if their father drops them off on time. And Jules will hopefully be home on Friday(Home as in here with us.)

 

Well for all that still check in here now again good day to ya all  and good night. I'd be nice to catch up again sometime wouldn't it?

Wow it seems like life is really just passing quickly on by. This year has been mostly pleasant, a couple of major blowouts between my sister and I but that's to be expected when you force kin into a sardine can. I grin and bear it I keep telling myself soon you'll have a house that is just ours(including the Kids and Jules). We don't have to take on any free loaders if we don't want to. So it's a sore spot, I've worked damn hard over these past couple of years. A little personal space isn't too much to ask is it.

 

I don't mind the drive to work it's rather nice. Except when there's sleet then it's attempted suicide, though oddly enough the rest of the working population doesn't see it that way.  This year has yet to bear a good bit of snow that stays longer than two days, in hopes I don't jinx myself, I say such words.

 

And oh the Bank this tickles my very funny bone. My ex-supervisor (Beth) threw in the towel and quit. She couldn't take it any more also my lovely ex-co-worker Penny she got offered a fine position that pays her $4 dollars more an hour at another Bank that I know will appreciate her for her talents. I know Because of the case study my business policy class did on the Bank she moved to it was our strategic planning final exam project. The Bank had 8 of it's people there for the presentation we did for it. A wonderful experience to work with that many people for for a common goal, the whole class had to work together. A good bunch of people. On to the Bank I quit, including me and the girl they fired they've had a turn over of 7 out of the 11 that were originally employed there at the beginning of this year. This all happened in the last seven months. One day they will learn how to treat their superstars until then may they boil and rot and experience a horrible loss of business. I have half a mind to mail them my book on Monday Morning Leadership. I can't help but to feel smug though.

 

Well any way on to what I really came for..................

 

To halfway rant about having to send that gitty brit off again. A week already feels like a month. There weren't as many pictures this time around as we were busy bees. But there is one where I captured his smile perfectly. There's one I think is sweet because of his dorky hat and another with the lights. Then he caught me in the snow. I have them all out of order right about now but I think you can figure them out.

This has been a really exciting week in the House of Heather. The kids started school back up on Tuesday, I pick Jules up from the airport on Friday and tomorrow I write my letter of resignation to the Bank. I've been searching for awhile, been to a few interviews and nothing panned out until now. Of all the positions I've applied to over the summer this was the highest paying opportunity it doubles my current wages. The break I've been waiting for. I'm am going to be a Program Accountant for the Leech Lake Tribe of Ojibwe. It means sorting my school schedule and possibly stringing things along for another semester.

 

All the dreams I have are realized even ones I didn't know I had are popping up. I will now be able to prove without a doubt to immigration that I can support Jules until they allow him to work in the US. I'll be able to afford a rather nice house for the children Jules and I. I can plan and save for family vacations, I could make it to Europe yet. I'll be able to pay off my student loans when they come due. I'll be able to get my CPA after I've completed the work experience requirements and take the test.

 

It's been a good week. :)

 

it's new it's wild it's fut. Not as vulgar as fuck, and not dorky as frick. Much like my combination of night and day. I tend to forget what time of day it is at work sometimes and in my hesitation I say dite. I know afternoon would work too or even better just  not saying anything at all. For some reason a transaction needs closure, it can't end at handing over the change. Plaster that fake smile on ya face and wish them well. Even though you know damn well you couldn't really give two shakes of a rats tail after that what goes down. Thing is they know it too. That's why they usually just roll their eyes at ya. I start to wonder how on earth is Minnesota known for nice. More often than not I run into  the not so nice. Maybe it's just a cover for all of the world, that mask people put on when they know someone isn't from around here.  If I can't be nice I don't even want to be around people, I don't like even like me then.

And so the fractals come alive......I found a program and I played a few nights in a row and this is what was produced.

I think I need to be reminded of how it's not a good idea to drink a cup of coffee at 11 'o' clock at night. One seems to find themselves restless and unable to sleep coming close to 1 am. It's all I had to drink in the house.............I swear aside from the water and the milk and lemonade that could have been made.... okay ya caught me. Well anyway yes I'm still alive and kicking and yes Jules and are still talking future plans, awwwwe isn't that cute, ya know you were thinking it. I just said it for ya.

 

Love yas really, yes you ya little oxygen molecule, ya ever get that feeling ya talking to air........hehe

I've been wondering that lately. I've become so wrapped up in school trying to figure out what my career objectives are I've lost site of me. I'm starting wonder if making the dean's list is really worth all the sacrifice. I've been pushing myself way too hard maybe. Sadly I don't feel it's enough. I don't have time for creativity, I don't have time for fun, I don't seem to have time for friends, I don't have time me. I'm trying to figure out who I'm trying to prove myself to, if this is really for me or for some other subconscious directive. Maybe it's all to fill a void.....really hard to piece it all together sometimes, sort out where I might be going wrong. Maybe I'm just missing Jules too much right now, he has this way of bringing out the inner child in me that screams to escape. I feel way too grown up....someone save me!

Someone mentions there are flies and other bugs in the room and you tell them it's time to "Debug"

It was offered, a night that the adults could go play soccer. They play against the U19 boys team and their coach from Morocco. I thought about it maybe not hard enough. My screaming thighs and joints are currently protesting my movement to play soccer and get more exercise. I still have the in-print of the soccer ball I blocked on my right knee. That doesn't hurt though its my legs they don't seem to want to move, in the first half I winded myself, and in the second it hurt to run. I'm not sure if this gives me more incentive to exercise and improve my endurance or not show up next week. I have said I wanted to do more. It was kinda fun, even if I don't know what I'm doing out there.

I's be tired. I just got home from a trip to my father's. Well the weekend started with a Soccer games in Theif river then on to my dad's. Like usual when I got there he was out fishing and I didn't actually get to see him until about 8 pm last night. I don't know why but I had an urge to write something anything tonight. Maybe cause I didn't get to talk to Jules. I just don't know.....maybe just to let everyone know I'm still alive oh I had a thought I have a few pics okay alot of pics to share with ya all. Just some of the things we've been doing over the past few months.  Mind ya I didn't take all of them. Enjoy!!

I do believe I passed up a position last night that pays two dollars more an hour more than I'm making now. How did I do that by telling the kind sir that I had to give the Bank two weeks notice. He needed someone immediately It's not written in stone that I have to but I'd really feel bad if I left Beth hurting short three instead of just the two we'll be when Amy goes on vacation. I ask myself if I really want to leave there, it's a battle. I have the flexibility to continue my schooling but lack any real challenge in my current position.

 

 

All is hushed in my racing world, ever so often I hear the sound of jean snap scrape the side of the drier not at all bothering. Children have laid down for the night and Jules has gone to the store. Leaves me with just the thoughts in my head to sort.

 

First to string about is if the police department has made any head way on the rash of vandalism that occurred last week, which included my old Saturn, the neighbors garage that was broke into and another neighbors pickup truck that was set a flame with the gas stolen from the previous neighbors garage. There were more to speak of that night the report said 25 or so in all. Sad to think they got away after all the damage they had done. It scares me to no end as well, are my children really safe here???

 

Next bout goes to work, I had a much better day today. I didn't feel nearly as on edge with everything not sure if was Emerson's quote I brought with me that kept me in check or if it was just telling myself only I can make it better.

 

"Finish each day and be done with it. You have done what you could. Some blunders and absurdities no doubt crept in; forget them as soon as you can. Tomorrow is a new day; begin it well and serenely and with too high a spirit to be cumbered with your old nonsense."
-- Ralph Waldo Emerson

 

I smile to myself when I think about my grades. Through my lack of writing here I had been studying, and with rather worthy results. I raised my GPA by .21 points if I can do that again each coming semester I'll graduate with honors. I know I set some rather hefty goals for myself sometimes but if I didn't at least try to accomplish something I just wouldn't see myself as anything. I've been working on Bankers training as well lately this on my own accord as well, I'm averaging an acing score in that. I have four courses lined up for this summer and six for next fall, five for spring, after that it'll be one more year for a second degree in management and I'm going to attempt to use next summer for an internship.

 

 

 

I've lost myself to worried thoughts. Really I'm at my wits end and don't know what to do. I'm so completely stressed out. It's not healthy I know but I don't know how ease it. School is out so that's one thing that isn't adding to it at this moment. It's mostly work, living arrangements, and future goals that I think are causing it. If I switch jobs I might not be able to finish school right away. My sister is causing a major headache as well. I really feel as if my head is going to explode. I've changed so much I don't recognize me anymore. I don't smoke, I haven't been out drinking or dancing since febuary, I now wear glasses, I'm not as silly as I used to be........I've lost my sense of humor somewhere. I absolutely hate work or at least I think I do. I try to smile I try to be happy I try and it just never seems to be enough. I'm such a prune these days I don't like it.

On the whole human beings want to be good, but not too good, and not quite all the time.
  - George Orwell

 

I've been bad and I've been good. School wise possibly too good but then again maybe not good enough as I missed a couple of assignments and a quiz. I made up for those by Acing my two portfolio projects, and Acing a stats test...............Note I hate my stats class. Coming quick are the finals and I have about a good week of studying for them all.

 

Oh and my sister continues to mooch off me free of charge. When and how do you tell your sister to own up to responsibility? When is enough, enough? She's been living with me for four months using my electricity, my gas, my water, my trash removal, my shampoo, my children's playroom, she's waken me on numerous occasions screaming on the phone to some poor sob on the other end, she's stumbled through my room at all hours of the morning disturbing my sleep, she's passed out on my living room floor after coming home drunk. I've brought these issues to my father as he did say if I had any troubles I was to bring it to him. You want to know what he told me???? He told me I had to get along with my sister. You know that makes me want to rip my hair out.

I gracefully pounced(Straddled) Jules, to find that he was wet in the nether regions. I declare as much to him and his reply was this.....

 

"Oh yeah I sprayed myself with the squirty thingy, I accidently had it pointed at myself......" Que my giggle fit!

Confusion is always the most honest response.
  - Marty Indik

 

Today was a day like no other, I didn't have a formal class to go to nor did I have to go to work. What I did have though was a required tour of a ply board plant, then spent about an hour looking for four poster beds.(It's a bad thing only cause it sparks this aching desire to have a bigger house.) Taking a nap cause the flu has slowly been making it's way through the members of the house. Presently it has Jules knocked off his feet and it's right driving him mad, the poor man. I know I'm next I'm the only one that hasn't had it yet. Then it was to the store where we found Narnia......Naturally on impulse I bought it. Fought with the new Dvd Player, the Sony, and in the end got it to play properly on my old DVD player that due to it's special moments hasn't been used since I've moved into my present living arrangements. Electronic malfunctions aren't they fun.

I presently can't see, you see I went to the eye doctor cause I was having troubles reading the board in class. So I made an appointment for this morning and now my eyes are dialated beyond belief Jules wants to take a photo of them cause he thinks they look cool, and I'll be getting glasses sometime here in the very near future............when ever they are ready for me. The main point is I went to the eye doctor to help my vision not make it worse..........sigh there is no winning on this one is there.